So I have been dealing with issues surrounding my lady parts for the past six months-ish. When I went in for an annual check-up, they ended up having to biopsy three cells. So at the ripe old age off 22 I got to experience my first (and hopefully only) cancer scare. So I waited two weeks for results of said biopsy and went to the doctor to get the results on Wednesday. Well, a couple hard-headed babies were having trouble coming into the world at the hospital, so my appointment was postponed until today. I went in, after a little freaking out over the past two weeks, and got my results. No cancer! Woohoo! However, I have a Grade 1 displasia, which means I'm one step closer to cancer. So for now, we monitor the situation every six months. So I'll guess we'll see if it's better or worse in six more months.
Besides stressing about money, that's about all that's been going on in my life lately. I just got new glasses today so looking at this computer screen is a little trippy...I'm gonna close it down and get ready for the weekend. Hope everyone has a great, fun, and stress free weekend!
Friday, February 25, 2011
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Life...
It's been a while since my last post. I've been busy here and there, but more importantly I've been trying to "keep busy" at work, so that doesn't include setting at my desk for very long. My Mom and Nana ended up coming to Searcy Sunday to hang out. It was great, I had a good time. We went and ate at my favorite, Which Wich, then went to Wal-Mart. I had all intentions of buying my own groceries, but my Nana coerced me into holding my wallet, and sneaky sneaky Nana wouldn't give it back and ended up buying my groceries! Very sweet of her, but I still felt bad, because for once, I actually had enough money for groceries. After that we just hung out at my apartment. It was a good day.
I didn't see Alex much over the weekend, but the time I did get to spend with him was great, as always. He's been a busy guy lately. We've kind of switched roles lately. He's now the one with 5 million things to do and I have all the time I want. It used to be the other way around. I have the most chill job on the universe and do very little physical labor. It actually makes me feel like a bum. Alex works his butt off every day and I just kinda set back and chill out. It's not my cup of tea, I can promise you that. For now though, it's where I need to be. It's best for me and Alex. I'm quiet ready for Alex to start school. I'm ready for him to feel the accomplishment that comes with finally getting that diploma. I'm also ready for him to not have to work so hard for his money.
We went out and ate with Alex's parents last night. It was really great. We ate at Copeland's, and let me tell you, it was delicious! It was really good to go on a double date with them! :)
As far as anything exciting going on, there's not much. Well, I take it back. There are some exciting things happening, but they're all in the future. We are getting a storage building at the first of March to start moving Alex to Searcy! Very excited! Starting in April, Alex will officially be a Searcian! Also, not only is Alex starting school in August, I am too, just on a smaller scale. I'll only be taking 2-3 classes, but I'm starting back and that's what I'm excited about! On current exciting events, there aren't too terribly many right now, but it will be okay because I'm just going to try to set back and enjoy the slow time because I know it will all change starting in August!
I didn't see Alex much over the weekend, but the time I did get to spend with him was great, as always. He's been a busy guy lately. We've kind of switched roles lately. He's now the one with 5 million things to do and I have all the time I want. It used to be the other way around. I have the most chill job on the universe and do very little physical labor. It actually makes me feel like a bum. Alex works his butt off every day and I just kinda set back and chill out. It's not my cup of tea, I can promise you that. For now though, it's where I need to be. It's best for me and Alex. I'm quiet ready for Alex to start school. I'm ready for him to feel the accomplishment that comes with finally getting that diploma. I'm also ready for him to not have to work so hard for his money.
We went out and ate with Alex's parents last night. It was really great. We ate at Copeland's, and let me tell you, it was delicious! It was really good to go on a double date with them! :)
As far as anything exciting going on, there's not much. Well, I take it back. There are some exciting things happening, but they're all in the future. We are getting a storage building at the first of March to start moving Alex to Searcy! Very excited! Starting in April, Alex will officially be a Searcian! Also, not only is Alex starting school in August, I am too, just on a smaller scale. I'll only be taking 2-3 classes, but I'm starting back and that's what I'm excited about! On current exciting events, there aren't too terribly many right now, but it will be okay because I'm just going to try to set back and enjoy the slow time because I know it will all change starting in August!
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
A Fabulous 23rd Birthday!!!
So yesterday was the celebration of my 23rd year on this earth! What's funny about that, is that I thought I was only going to be 22! Oops. It was an awesome day! I started the day with CPR training at 8 am. That part sucked. I was the only one in the class that wasn't an RN, so apparently the instructor thought I was an idiot. He thought that I didn't know what a laryngotracheal tube was and he didn't think I knew where the BRACHIAL ARTERY was. Gah, what did he think? That I'd been living under a rock or something? Oh well though, I knew what they were and passed that test with a 100%! I spent the school day at a "freshmen" pep-rally, and then we tipped off against Blytheville at 3:30. I asked both the girls and the boys to win, since it was my birthday. The girls ended up losing, but the boys pulled out a win for me! The girls got me a birthday card and the whole team signed it! It made me feel really special, especially since these kids are my first team!
After the games, I got to go home to a surprise dinner from my honey, Alex. He surprised me with hot and sour soup and frozen crab ran-goons. He freshly fried the crab ran-goons when he got home so they'd be good and crisp! He's the best! He knew I had been craving that for some time now! I couldn't ask for any better because Alex is as great as I could ever imagine. After my delicious dinner, we played on my new Xbox! We played Dance Central for about an hour, then Kinect Adventures, and finished the night off with Call of Duty Black Ops! It was a great night!
All in all I had a great birthday! I'm sad that I won't be seeing much of Alex over the next week, but I know he is working hard for the both of us. I sure will/do miss him though. He will be working his regular day job, and then juggling his two side jobs at night every night from now until who knows when. :( Looks like a lot of solo Xbox is in my future. I invited my parents up to my apartment Sunday for some fun and to go eat at Which Wich! I hope they come, it'll be awesome!
Well this post turned out to be a jumbled mess, and for that, I apologize. I've already explained "brain bingo" to you, and this post was just me grasping onto those positive signs!
After the games, I got to go home to a surprise dinner from my honey, Alex. He surprised me with hot and sour soup and frozen crab ran-goons. He freshly fried the crab ran-goons when he got home so they'd be good and crisp! He's the best! He knew I had been craving that for some time now! I couldn't ask for any better because Alex is as great as I could ever imagine. After my delicious dinner, we played on my new Xbox! We played Dance Central for about an hour, then Kinect Adventures, and finished the night off with Call of Duty Black Ops! It was a great night!
All in all I had a great birthday! I'm sad that I won't be seeing much of Alex over the next week, but I know he is working hard for the both of us. I sure will/do miss him though. He will be working his regular day job, and then juggling his two side jobs at night every night from now until who knows when. :( Looks like a lot of solo Xbox is in my future. I invited my parents up to my apartment Sunday for some fun and to go eat at Which Wich! I hope they come, it'll be awesome!
Well this post turned out to be a jumbled mess, and for that, I apologize. I've already explained "brain bingo" to you, and this post was just me grasping onto those positive signs!
Monday, February 14, 2011
Valentine's Day
Today is Valentines Day, but more importantly, it's the day before my birthday! Haha! Usually I'm no fan of V-day, but usually because it's a holiday that gets mushed in with my birthday. However, this year my feelings toward V-day are remarkably different from my feelings over the past years. Whether it's because I've matured in my old age of almost 23 (yes, 23...sniff sniff) or if it's because I've actually found the man who will be my valentine forever, I like today! Alex and I celebrated Valentines Day early, due to our current living situation. He took me to a marvelous dinner at Macaroni Grill. We had to wait a little over an hour to be seated, but the time spent together sharing made it okay. The dinner was awesome. He also surprised me with a the most wonderful present- concert tickets to see Amos Lee in Birmingham, Alabama!!!! Words can not explain how excited I am. His voice is a dream. I've never found music that I can listen to in any mood and enjoy it regardless.
I bet you're dying to know what I got Alex for Valentine's Day. Well, I'll tell you, but first you should brace yourself for fits of laughter. I got him Trolli Gummy Worms, Rips, Pistachios, Hawiian Rolls, and a 12 pack of Nike socks. Yes, I'm romantic, you don't have to remind me. :) On a serious note, I felt like a douche handing that present to him after he gave me such a fabulous present. But I guess that's while we will be Valentines forever...he was fine with my present! Maybe because he knows he's getting a cage next month!
Well, that's my V-day. And tomorrow I'll tell you about my birthday!
I bet you're dying to know what I got Alex for Valentine's Day. Well, I'll tell you, but first you should brace yourself for fits of laughter. I got him Trolli Gummy Worms, Rips, Pistachios, Hawiian Rolls, and a 12 pack of Nike socks. Yes, I'm romantic, you don't have to remind me. :) On a serious note, I felt like a douche handing that present to him after he gave me such a fabulous present. But I guess that's while we will be Valentines forever...he was fine with my present! Maybe because he knows he's getting a cage next month!
Well, that's my V-day. And tomorrow I'll tell you about my birthday!
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Brain Bingo
So here is how I explain my brain function- bingo. You know the cage with all the numbered balls inside? It spins the balls around, someone pulls out a ball, says it's number, and then puts it back in the cage. The cage is my head and all those numbered balls are my thoughts. I've got 5 bazillion thoughts bouncing around in my head at any given time, one thought getting drawn to the front of the others, and then getting casually tossed aside to be found later. An example of said thoughts would be: my health (stomach issues, and I am currently battling an apparent sinus infection), money, Alex, April (the month Alex finally moves in with me), my job, my career, my future...the list could go on for days, however these are the most prominent thoughts surfacing recently.
There's no sorting out the thoughts or pulling one out, thinking about it, and being done with it. Nope, the thought comes in, hangs out for a little while, and then POOF, see ya later! It's stressful at times, constantly juggling so many different things in my head while trying to appear normal and sane on the outside. Alex notices, when the bingo balls get to spinning too fast. I tell him what's on my mind, he tries to help me sort it all out, and then we move on. See, it's not good to dwell on negative things, and most of those bingo balls are marked with a huge minus sign. But when the positives come around, I cling on to them for dear life, savoring the moments of mental clarity and happiness.
There's no sorting out the thoughts or pulling one out, thinking about it, and being done with it. Nope, the thought comes in, hangs out for a little while, and then POOF, see ya later! It's stressful at times, constantly juggling so many different things in my head while trying to appear normal and sane on the outside. Alex notices, when the bingo balls get to spinning too fast. I tell him what's on my mind, he tries to help me sort it all out, and then we move on. See, it's not good to dwell on negative things, and most of those bingo balls are marked with a huge minus sign. But when the positives come around, I cling on to them for dear life, savoring the moments of mental clarity and happiness.
Friday, February 4, 2011
The Angry Stomach
Okay, this is totally on the opposite side of the blog-topic universe, however it is what is on my mind. So here goes. I have this completely stupid condition called IBS (Irritable Bowel Syndrome). Let me break it down for you --> My stomach is pissed, A LOT! I have been in denial about this issue, because I think it is totally ridiculous. Finally, I went to the doctor for a wellness screening (after I have been dealing with this for about 2 years). I told her I was relatively healthy (and she agreed) with the exception of my digestive issues. I told her what had been going on for so long, the phases I go through. She told me that I had a moderate-severe case of IBS. So after two years, I accepted the fact and asked what I could do to make it better. My answer was: food and fiber. I've got to keep up with the food I eat, what doesn't effect my stomach, and what throws it for a loop. I also take two different fiber supplements/laxatives. I feel like I'm a 75 year old lady, trust me.
So far, I have found some definitely DO NOT eat foods, which consist of eggs, milk, greasy foods, and McDonalds. I'm giving soy milk a try, hopefully my stomach <3's soy! Ha. Since my mind is constantly thinking about food- What can I eat? Is it bad for me? How much fiber? How much fat?- I have tossed around the idea of vegetarianism. Not a vegetarian who will not eat a piece of meat to save my life, just one that avoids meat as much as possible. I'm trying to research the lifestyle, to gain as much knowledge as possible about it before I make my decision. I've never been much of a meat eater anyway, so I don't think it would bother me to not eat meat, I just want to have proper nutrition while not eating meat. The USDA says that you can get the full amount of daily nutrients while not eating meat as long as you have a well rounded diet. There are also a ton of health benefits to being a vegetarian, besides helping my stomach! So who knows, I might give it a try. It definitely sounds like it could help me, and hey, what could it hurt?
The most difficulty I see with this plan is cooking for Alex. He is a carnivore through and through. He loves meat and would prefer it with every meal. He centers a meal around a meat, where as I constantly center my meals around my stomach. I guess it's just something I'll have to figure out. But I know one thing, I've got to get this stuff under control, or the next time you see me might be in the hospital!
So far, I have found some definitely DO NOT eat foods, which consist of eggs, milk, greasy foods, and McDonalds. I'm giving soy milk a try, hopefully my stomach <3's soy! Ha. Since my mind is constantly thinking about food- What can I eat? Is it bad for me? How much fiber? How much fat?- I have tossed around the idea of vegetarianism. Not a vegetarian who will not eat a piece of meat to save my life, just one that avoids meat as much as possible. I'm trying to research the lifestyle, to gain as much knowledge as possible about it before I make my decision. I've never been much of a meat eater anyway, so I don't think it would bother me to not eat meat, I just want to have proper nutrition while not eating meat. The USDA says that you can get the full amount of daily nutrients while not eating meat as long as you have a well rounded diet. There are also a ton of health benefits to being a vegetarian, besides helping my stomach! So who knows, I might give it a try. It definitely sounds like it could help me, and hey, what could it hurt?
The most difficulty I see with this plan is cooking for Alex. He is a carnivore through and through. He loves meat and would prefer it with every meal. He centers a meal around a meat, where as I constantly center my meals around my stomach. I guess it's just something I'll have to figure out. But I know one thing, I've got to get this stuff under control, or the next time you see me might be in the hospital!
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Let Me Tell You 'Bout My Best Friend!
Sometime in 2008, I met the person who would eventually become my husband, though I didn't know it at the time. I had just started working at Brick Oven Pizza in Conway, when all of the other employees were excitedly awaiting the return of Axle. With a name like Axel, I was expecting some big, beefed up, redneck to come walking in the door. Boy was I wrong. In walked Alex (aka Axel), skinny as could be, but very cute. We worked together a few times before either of us really tried to start a conversation with the other. Finally, we started talking about what we did when we weren't at Brick Oven. At the time, I was a lube tech at Mr. Brake and Lube; Alex was a lube tech at Honda World (he had just left Mr. Brake and Lubes 2nd location). What a coincidence, the same jobs at the same time. We hung out a couple of times, but nothing ever came of it. We both quit Brick Oven after a short time and never stayed in touch.
Lucky for those of you reading, you already know this isn't a sad story where we never see each other again, you know what happened, but I'll tell you again anyways.
Late September of 2009, Alex called and wanted to hang out. I had just ended a terrible relationship and wanted nothing to do with him. I said no, because not only was I not in the mood, my parents would not approve of me hanging out with someone so soon. Well a short time later, he called again but this time I agreed. It would be fun to see him again, plus I was sure we were just going to be friends. I could do friends. Our first adventure was at the Salem Trails. It was cold outside and I had just gotten off work, so I was still in my lube tech attire. He had time to change, I think. We met up, walked, talked. Lucky for him, my mechanic jacket had my name sewn on it, so even though he had forgot my first name, he didn't have to admit it. The night ended with a kiss, butterflies in my stomach, and my heart doing back-flips. Over the course of the next month we went out on "mini-dates" here and there and on November 1, 2009 he asked me to be his girlfriend. Two words, no, make it four: SO sweet, SO surprising.
Well the months passed on and I think it was April 2010 before the 3 big words were finally admitted. We had both been running circles around the thought of love, but neither of us wanted to get anywhere close to it. Well, it happened anyway, as much as each of us tried to deny it. We were in the bathroom for some reason (brushing teeth, who knows) and were leaving on our way to go out. He said something funny, as I started laughing "I loooov, oohhh, uummmm" came out of my mouth. (It was suppose to be I love you, but I was so afraid to say it I tried to choke it back.) He looked at me with big eyes, asked me to repeat myself, and then again, to my surprise said, "I love you too." <---Freaking awesome day!
He just keeps surprising me. We had discussed engagement, living together, the whole nine yards. He told me he didn't want to be engaged until we lived together, he won't propose on a holiday, the list goes on. On December 25, 2010, after dating for the last 13 months, Alex proposed! THE BEST DAY OF MY ENTIRE LIFE! He brings me joy every day. He is my rock, he keeps me sane, calm, rationale, and logical. Sure, I would be okay without him, because I am an independent woman who knows how to take care of myself, but with him, my life is so much more fun, enjoyable, adventurous...my life is just more full of life.
I love you Alex. You are my best friend.
Lucky for those of you reading, you already know this isn't a sad story where we never see each other again, you know what happened, but I'll tell you again anyways.
Late September of 2009, Alex called and wanted to hang out. I had just ended a terrible relationship and wanted nothing to do with him. I said no, because not only was I not in the mood, my parents would not approve of me hanging out with someone so soon. Well a short time later, he called again but this time I agreed. It would be fun to see him again, plus I was sure we were just going to be friends. I could do friends. Our first adventure was at the Salem Trails. It was cold outside and I had just gotten off work, so I was still in my lube tech attire. He had time to change, I think. We met up, walked, talked. Lucky for him, my mechanic jacket had my name sewn on it, so even though he had forgot my first name, he didn't have to admit it. The night ended with a kiss, butterflies in my stomach, and my heart doing back-flips. Over the course of the next month we went out on "mini-dates" here and there and on November 1, 2009 he asked me to be his girlfriend. Two words, no, make it four: SO sweet, SO surprising.
Well the months passed on and I think it was April 2010 before the 3 big words were finally admitted. We had both been running circles around the thought of love, but neither of us wanted to get anywhere close to it. Well, it happened anyway, as much as each of us tried to deny it. We were in the bathroom for some reason (brushing teeth, who knows) and were leaving on our way to go out. He said something funny, as I started laughing "I loooov, oohhh, uummmm" came out of my mouth. (It was suppose to be I love you, but I was so afraid to say it I tried to choke it back.) He looked at me with big eyes, asked me to repeat myself, and then again, to my surprise said, "I love you too." <---Freaking awesome day!
He just keeps surprising me. We had discussed engagement, living together, the whole nine yards. He told me he didn't want to be engaged until we lived together, he won't propose on a holiday, the list goes on. On December 25, 2010, after dating for the last 13 months, Alex proposed! THE BEST DAY OF MY ENTIRE LIFE! He brings me joy every day. He is my rock, he keeps me sane, calm, rationale, and logical. Sure, I would be okay without him, because I am an independent woman who knows how to take care of myself, but with him, my life is so much more fun, enjoyable, adventurous...my life is just more full of life.
I love you Alex. You are my best friend.
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
AATA Young Professionals Committee
For an insight to Athletic Training and information regarding the profession (from us, the young professionals, point of view), please visit:
www.aataypc.blogspot.com
If you want to read what the old professionals have to say, visit:
www.nata.org
www.swata.com
I will be blogging on the aataypc blog as well.
www.aataypc.blogspot.com
If you want to read what the old professionals have to say, visit:
www.nata.org
www.swata.com
I will be blogging on the aataypc blog as well.
The Taste of Failure
Throughout my time at UCA, I never dropped or failed a class. Never ever. The thought just simply didn't ever cross my mind. However, about November, I got a brilliant idea that I would take Trigonometry as a college course to better my math skills so that I could take more advanced science classes. When I say brilliant, that is very very sarcastic. To say the least, I was taking this class online and simply could not do it. Alex, my genius fiance, couldn't do it either, which just solidified the fact that I was going to FAIL. So I decide to drop the class Saturday. The last day to drop the class and get your money back was Friday. Yep, a day late and about $300 short. Oh well, you live and you learn I guess. What did I learn? Don't be an idiot and think you can take College Trigonometry online; or Don't pay for your class in full before you know that you can do it or not? Ha. Anyways, I failed at my mission of getting better at math. It sucks. I did get a little better, just not as much as I would have liked.
I have been spending a lot of time thinking lately. I've got time for that while I set at one practice or the other. Sometimes I feel like I not only failed at that math class, but that I failed myself a little. Should I have gone to grad school right after graduation? Should I be in some other state, scraping change, and pursuing my masters? What would I want to do? What could I do? What am I smart enough for? I want to go back to school, but why? How? When? For what? Four out of nine of my classmates hold a GA position and are pursuing masters. I'm the only one employed as an athletic trainer. The others all hold down jobs outside of the athletic training field. Did I fail myself by not leaving? Did my stubbornness ruin my chances of ever advancing out of the high school realm of athletic training? Day in and out these thoughts are running through my head, ceaselessly seeking answers that I can not find. Often I find myself distracted by these thoughts. The fact that I can't find the answers right now stresses me even more. I need a guidance counselor for life. But I guess it is all a part of growing up, of becoming a better person and woman. To question yourself, to ask if you are doing all that you can do for yourself and for your family. I strive to be the best person, friend, co-worker, and fiance that I can be everyday. I hope it is good enough for now. I know that it will get better!
I have been spending a lot of time thinking lately. I've got time for that while I set at one practice or the other. Sometimes I feel like I not only failed at that math class, but that I failed myself a little. Should I have gone to grad school right after graduation? Should I be in some other state, scraping change, and pursuing my masters? What would I want to do? What could I do? What am I smart enough for? I want to go back to school, but why? How? When? For what? Four out of nine of my classmates hold a GA position and are pursuing masters. I'm the only one employed as an athletic trainer. The others all hold down jobs outside of the athletic training field. Did I fail myself by not leaving? Did my stubbornness ruin my chances of ever advancing out of the high school realm of athletic training? Day in and out these thoughts are running through my head, ceaselessly seeking answers that I can not find. Often I find myself distracted by these thoughts. The fact that I can't find the answers right now stresses me even more. I need a guidance counselor for life. But I guess it is all a part of growing up, of becoming a better person and woman. To question yourself, to ask if you are doing all that you can do for yourself and for your family. I strive to be the best person, friend, co-worker, and fiance that I can be everyday. I hope it is good enough for now. I know that it will get better!
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