So here is how I explain my brain function- bingo. You know the cage with all the numbered balls inside? It spins the balls around, someone pulls out a ball, says it's number, and then puts it back in the cage. The cage is my head and all those numbered balls are my thoughts. I've got 5 bazillion thoughts bouncing around in my head at any given time, one thought getting drawn to the front of the others, and then getting casually tossed aside to be found later. An example of said thoughts would be: my health (stomach issues, and I am currently battling an apparent sinus infection), money, Alex, April (the month Alex finally moves in with me), my job, my career, my future...the list could go on for days, however these are the most prominent thoughts surfacing recently.
There's no sorting out the thoughts or pulling one out, thinking about it, and being done with it. Nope, the thought comes in, hangs out for a little while, and then POOF, see ya later! It's stressful at times, constantly juggling so many different things in my head while trying to appear normal and sane on the outside. Alex notices, when the bingo balls get to spinning too fast. I tell him what's on my mind, he tries to help me sort it all out, and then we move on. See, it's not good to dwell on negative things, and most of those bingo balls are marked with a huge minus sign. But when the positives come around, I cling on to them for dear life, savoring the moments of mental clarity and happiness.
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